I'm so very sorry the world has treated you this way (and I know it has, because I get the same reactions and responses) and that the treatment has scarred you so deeply. I have my doubts and worries, but I have an internal confidence/lack of caring that keeps me going (and makes others hate me, especially in some of my workplaces). I wish I could share that with you.

I adore your novels. I adore your writings. (I named my World of Warcraft avatar after a character in "Living With Ghosts", which is extremely high praise, even if it seems trivial.) Please never stop writing.