My heart breaks for you, Kari. I love both you and your writing (you must know how much I love your writing, musn't you? how much I admire the things you do that I can't? Utterly; that's how much.), and I desperately wish there were things I could do to change the pressures of the world and culture that weigh so heavily on you. All I really can do, though, is offer love and support, and you have those from me. *hugs*